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today i was supposed to go in for an injection to my back at the Menlo Park Surgical Hospital. i take off from work early, get to the appt early and fill out a bunch of paperwork. i sit down and then this nurse comes out and calls my name, all fucked up of course cuz she’s trying to say the full thing. i try to tell her i just go by “giri” but she doesn’t really hear me and from that point, i knew things weren’t gonna go so well.

i get taken to one of their rooms, sit down, fill out more paperwork and they take my vitals. blood pressure and pulse are a bit higher than normal, but yeah i’m in a hospital, duh. then she tells me i need to get an IV put in for sedation during the injection. i’m thinking, yeah no biggie, had one of these when i got my wisdom teeth out. so this woman starts poking around and she’s like “tell me when it hurts”. now i can usually take a bit but man she was diggin this needle deep into the back of my hand, wiggling it around and shit. so I’m like, “yeah that hurts a lot, yep, still hurts” and she continues for more than TWO minutes. doesn’t sound like a long time, but its an eternity when ur gettin a big IV stuck in you.

turns out she never could get it in place because i start feeling pretty faint… then boom, i just blackout. i remember that i started thinking about something really complicated, then i was like, wait, what was i just doing, how come i can’t breathe, why is it so dark… so i try really hard to come back out of it and just get some air… it took a while, sort of freaked me out. i wake up and i’ve totally slid down the chair i was sitting in, almost falling out of it and there are a bunch more people in the room.

they stick me on a gurney after measuring my vitals and take me to a new room to relax, throwing warm blankets on me to help get the circulation and everything going. all the muscles in my body were so tense, i couldn’t really bend my legs or feet. meanwhile, the nurses keep coming by, telling me to relax, and all i can think about is how tense all the muscles in my legs up through my chest are, so tense that its really hard to breathe deeply.

finally i start to relax because i’m so tired and start to fall asleep. the tingling in my arms and tenseness in my feet slowly go away only to be replaced by nausea. blech… i had all this acid in my stomach from the blacking out and the muscles tensing that after i got up, i had to go straight to the bathroom and i threw up a lot. felt a lot better after that, and went home.

katie took care of me all day and made me feel so much better. thanks! i’m gonna go get more info on what happened during the parts i can’t remember well from the blacking out…

anyway… ugh i’m glad today is over…